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... that I'm back. Once again. And alive, for that matter. I decided to pick up drawing once more. What's different from last time (or last few times)? Well, I moved out from my home. This is actually the first time for me to leave my family and my place completely. I always had someone around. Some circumstances led to this new opportunity, and I'm grateful for that. Not that I had it particulary bad at my familys home - but I felt kind of trapped. I hardly moved forward in life, be it at my jobs, my college or my hobbies. I sort of just "stood there" as if time stopped around me. I needed to break free, and it was about damn time! So I moved in a new place with three of my fellow students who I know from college, and we sort of became room mates - just that we share a flat, and every one of us has their own room. We also know have three cute little doggies. It sure is different from before. A new place, a new life, a new start. It was just what I needed. And slowly but surely, the ice is breaking. I feel energy and creativity flowing back into my mind. Before all that, i was merely "functioning" somehow. Like a machine, if you will. But that is about to change.
So as part of that change, I picked up my trusty (and rusty) mechanical pencil, and I just started drawing what I always wanted to draw. Time has passed, we all grew older, and so my preferences also changed. I still prefer anime / manga art and cartoon / comics above all else, but I clearly have a new focus within that style: Adult Art. Not only is it a viewer magnet (as if...), it also is something I always wanted to do, but never really could because I was scared and afraid. I enjoy my newly won freedom all the way. I must say, it is quite enjoyable to draw female nudity. Obviously, it is a natural pleasant sight for many of us, but also drawing nudity feels somehow ... better. So I decided to give it a shot. Expect much more boobs from now on. Maybe even some more explicit works. Don't worry though. It'll always be cropped to fit the deviantart guidelines. However, there WILL BE some uncropped versions out there. You'll just have to find it - or ask me
On that note, I also started working on perspective and anatomy. Since most of my drawn characters won't have any clothes on anyways, I figured I might as well combine these two skill traits. I found some neato tutorials here on dA, which I might try out every now and then.
So, if you like the sound of this, you are more than welcome to stay and enjoy my art as it developes over time. If you, however, are absolutely against the idea of having any kind of nudity, I'm afraid I can't offer you something else at the moment. Please try to keep in mind though that all these plans are meant to develope my drawing skills, and sooner or later I will return to regular artworks and comics. Just pleae be patient until then.
Well, if something HASN'T changed, it sure is the fact that I still like to write massive amounts of text. See ya in the next one!
-Perky
So as part of that change, I picked up my trusty (and rusty) mechanical pencil, and I just started drawing what I always wanted to draw. Time has passed, we all grew older, and so my preferences also changed. I still prefer anime / manga art and cartoon / comics above all else, but I clearly have a new focus within that style: Adult Art. Not only is it a viewer magnet (as if...), it also is something I always wanted to do, but never really could because I was scared and afraid. I enjoy my newly won freedom all the way. I must say, it is quite enjoyable to draw female nudity. Obviously, it is a natural pleasant sight for many of us, but also drawing nudity feels somehow ... better. So I decided to give it a shot. Expect much more boobs from now on. Maybe even some more explicit works. Don't worry though. It'll always be cropped to fit the deviantart guidelines. However, there WILL BE some uncropped versions out there. You'll just have to find it - or ask me
On that note, I also started working on perspective and anatomy. Since most of my drawn characters won't have any clothes on anyways, I figured I might as well combine these two skill traits. I found some neato tutorials here on dA, which I might try out every now and then.
So, if you like the sound of this, you are more than welcome to stay and enjoy my art as it developes over time. If you, however, are absolutely against the idea of having any kind of nudity, I'm afraid I can't offer you something else at the moment. Please try to keep in mind though that all these plans are meant to develope my drawing skills, and sooner or later I will return to regular artworks and comics. Just pleae be patient until then.
Well, if something HASN'T changed, it sure is the fact that I still like to write massive amounts of text. See ya in the next one!
-Perky
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Honestly, when I check my messages, I mostly skip the journal parts. Could be because of my lack of time and/or willingness. Who knows.
SO.
Do people even still know me? Maybe two or three of you do, but most people probably have forgotten me, which isn't bad. It's my fault after all for only sending life signs just once in year or so.
So still, why do I even bother writing this? Maybe just to get things off my chest. I tend to do that when my brain is stuffed with thoughts and activity. Like it is now.
I also tend to do these way too long. Maybe not today. We'll see.
So, what's new? Fun part is, there is nothing new. Going into my fourth year of college now, and things COULD run more smootly. I had to repeat some classes and lectures and it's quite a pain in the ass to do all that stuff again. Since my college is strongly divided by summer- and winter semesters, I can only repeat summer classes in summer and winter classes in winter - unfortunately. So waiting a whole year just because I was "lazy" sucks balls. What else? No job at the moment. Actually since middle of march. I can remember doing nothing but studying and working, weeks or months long. On the few short days I have off, I mostly visited family or friends. So now, I'm unemployed. For the first time in 4 years. Yay. Affording to go to college is not a big deal. I saved a lot of money during these times. So basically, apart from studying, I now hae more time for me. Time to actually think about me and my future. Time to do my hobbies I mostly had to quit because of named schedule. I became quite a pro in computer science if I do say so myself, but to gain that, I lost all of my other abilities. Until now. I just recently started playing video games again. Of course, what else, it's an MMORPG again. My favorite genre. I also started learning japanese as a side course in college, and I also started practising kendo. You could say I became a japanese freak lol. I don't why or how that happened. It's not like I watch animes all night long. I just recently picked up a huge interest in the country itself, maybe due to what kind of technology they are able to produce. Anyways, now I picked up some old habits again, and started a competely new hobby. So tonight, I was sitting here, at my pc, wondering what else there was I enjoyed doing in the past. Then I spied deviantART in my bookmarks.
So after gazing on my on profile, which has become nothing but a pile of trash in the last years, I just decided to pick it up again aswell. Not only dA as a community, but also the art thing. I once loved drawing, even if my pieces where far beyond being called "good". I enjoyed doing it back then, and that has been all that mattered to me. I had quite some "artist crises" too, if I recall correctly. Stupid things like "ohh, I'm no good as an artist, I'll quit meh meh" were bothering me because I literally had nothing better to do back then. If I had to name one thing that was absolutely positive during college, I'd say it's how it has affected the way I'm thinking and doing things. I became more modest, more serious in a manner of wild thinking, I gained a bit of discipline, and in gerenal I'd say I'm more mature now. I still have some "silly phases", but not in weird situations anymore like I used to.
So with these new traits, I'm picking up the pencil once again. So, since upcoming art is probably taking a while (since I just have to start all over again), expect more journals, comments, and activity in the community in general of me instead. This whole process from my first drawings over refurbishing my profile page up to uploading some pieces will proceed steady, but definite. I hope to get in touch with you guys again, who still now me. And I'm also looking forward in meeting new people aswell!
Until next time, stay tuned! And If you have questions or just want to talk, there's a big commentary section underneath
~Daniel
SO.
Do people even still know me? Maybe two or three of you do, but most people probably have forgotten me, which isn't bad. It's my fault after all for only sending life signs just once in year or so.
So still, why do I even bother writing this? Maybe just to get things off my chest. I tend to do that when my brain is stuffed with thoughts and activity. Like it is now.
I also tend to do these way too long. Maybe not today. We'll see.
So, what's new? Fun part is, there is nothing new. Going into my fourth year of college now, and things COULD run more smootly. I had to repeat some classes and lectures and it's quite a pain in the ass to do all that stuff again. Since my college is strongly divided by summer- and winter semesters, I can only repeat summer classes in summer and winter classes in winter - unfortunately. So waiting a whole year just because I was "lazy" sucks balls. What else? No job at the moment. Actually since middle of march. I can remember doing nothing but studying and working, weeks or months long. On the few short days I have off, I mostly visited family or friends. So now, I'm unemployed. For the first time in 4 years. Yay. Affording to go to college is not a big deal. I saved a lot of money during these times. So basically, apart from studying, I now hae more time for me. Time to actually think about me and my future. Time to do my hobbies I mostly had to quit because of named schedule. I became quite a pro in computer science if I do say so myself, but to gain that, I lost all of my other abilities. Until now. I just recently started playing video games again. Of course, what else, it's an MMORPG again. My favorite genre. I also started learning japanese as a side course in college, and I also started practising kendo. You could say I became a japanese freak lol. I don't why or how that happened. It's not like I watch animes all night long. I just recently picked up a huge interest in the country itself, maybe due to what kind of technology they are able to produce. Anyways, now I picked up some old habits again, and started a competely new hobby. So tonight, I was sitting here, at my pc, wondering what else there was I enjoyed doing in the past. Then I spied deviantART in my bookmarks.
So after gazing on my on profile, which has become nothing but a pile of trash in the last years, I just decided to pick it up again aswell. Not only dA as a community, but also the art thing. I once loved drawing, even if my pieces where far beyond being called "good". I enjoyed doing it back then, and that has been all that mattered to me. I had quite some "artist crises" too, if I recall correctly. Stupid things like "ohh, I'm no good as an artist, I'll quit meh meh" were bothering me because I literally had nothing better to do back then. If I had to name one thing that was absolutely positive during college, I'd say it's how it has affected the way I'm thinking and doing things. I became more modest, more serious in a manner of wild thinking, I gained a bit of discipline, and in gerenal I'd say I'm more mature now. I still have some "silly phases", but not in weird situations anymore like I used to.
So with these new traits, I'm picking up the pencil once again. So, since upcoming art is probably taking a while (since I just have to start all over again), expect more journals, comments, and activity in the community in general of me instead. This whole process from my first drawings over refurbishing my profile page up to uploading some pieces will proceed steady, but definite. I hope to get in touch with you guys again, who still now me. And I'm also looking forward in meeting new people aswell!
Until next time, stay tuned! And If you have questions or just want to talk, there's a big commentary section underneath
~Daniel
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Welcome to 2013
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Merry delayed christmas and a happy new year. I hope you guys are doing well. It has been a while since my last journal entry, so I figured I might as well let you people know what's going on.
Actually, not much has happened so far. College is still fun yet exhausting. I have exams in late february and afterwards I'll go straight to my 4th semester. During holiday season, I was working everyday to get my bills paid. I just have a part time job and I don't earn that much, so I only work during weekends or on holidays, but mostly for a 9 hour shift.
I'm still not really motivated to draw anything again, which is sad, since I became a lot better throughout my college life. Mostly in design-related things, but hey - photoshop is photoshop, right? I'm tired most of the time, and I don't feel like doing anything besides playing videogames - again. Currently I'm playing TERA, an MMORPG. It's very time-consuming but alot of fun. If you're interested in such games, check out my latest deviation. You'll find further information about the game in the artist's comments. Here's the link:
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I keep telling you that maybe, some day, sooner or later, I'll update my gallery again, but let's be honest here: there's nothing there. And there won't be that fast. I hate making promises, mostly because I can't keep them. I should stop lying to myself about these things. I'll stop here before I'll drown in my own sorrows and this turns into a self-deflected rant. I only wanted you to know how I'm doing, and that's basically it. Feel free to comment or message me, since I really dig conversations these days.
-PX
Actually, not much has happened so far. College is still fun yet exhausting. I have exams in late february and afterwards I'll go straight to my 4th semester. During holiday season, I was working everyday to get my bills paid. I just have a part time job and I don't earn that much, so I only work during weekends or on holidays, but mostly for a 9 hour shift.
I'm still not really motivated to draw anything again, which is sad, since I became a lot better throughout my college life. Mostly in design-related things, but hey - photoshop is photoshop, right? I'm tired most of the time, and I don't feel like doing anything besides playing videogames - again. Currently I'm playing TERA, an MMORPG. It's very time-consuming but alot of fun. If you're interested in such games, check out my latest deviation. You'll find further information about the game in the artist's comments. Here's the link:
.I keep telling you that maybe, some day, sooner or later, I'll update my gallery again, but let's be honest here: there's nothing there. And there won't be that fast. I hate making promises, mostly because I can't keep them. I should stop lying to myself about these things. I'll stop here before I'll drown in my own sorrows and this turns into a self-deflected rant. I only wanted you to know how I'm doing, and that's basically it. Feel free to comment or message me, since I really dig conversations these days.
-PX
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If it were possible, I'd love to name this Journal "Regarding my previous journal entry, I made up my mind, took a longer break and decided to stay on deviantART because I wasn't in the best of moods that day and the problem I've had was my own fault." ..... but since dA doesn't allow such long titles, I might aswell add it in here, and voila - you get my basic message from this journal in a nutshell. I never was really good in writing short texts with much information, probably due to all those essays I had to write back in school, but I also somehow have an urgent need to repeat my point over and over in various ways to make sure everybody understands me. Figures that nobody likes to read long messages.
This being said, let me get straight to the next topic on my list. I'm still trying to get over this dA crisis I just had, but there's still that odd feeling that I absolutely HAVE to create at least something to put up here on my profile, or else my existence here on dA would be invalid and unlogical. Yeah, that's basically the weird thing I was trying to tell you the last time. I'm trying not to put myself under that ridicolous pressure anymore, and since I just started working again during my semester break, It's a good opportunity to get on different thoughts. I picked up my pencil just recently, and started drawing after work, with nice music in the background, without having to worry about anything. First thing that would probably came into my mind were things like "oh gawd, is this even what my watchers want to see? I don't even know what to draw." et cetera et cetera. I stopped worrying about this. I started drawing for fun again, like it should be, since drawing has always been just a hobby of mine. I don't have clients or deadlines, so I'm starting to wonder why I always thought like this. In the end, I just ended up drawing nothing at all. I thought It would be better than drawing crap. Enough of that! In future, I don't give a damn wether my watchers like the stuff I produce or don't. Afterall, I should be watched for the art I like to create, right?
Related to this, I want to jump to my future plans. And this is funny, because I don't have any at all ... xD. Like I said, I draw whatever I want, whenever I want to, so there will be:
-NO regular based updates (means I upload stuff whenever I feel like it)
-NO art-challenges (I end up getting bored after the third drawing anyways)
-NO commissions (I tried at one point to draw stuff for other people multiple times. I failed miserably, because I made some sort of agreements which lead to pressure. If I draw something for you, it's because I wanted to do so)
And last but not least:
-NO promises! Never! At all! Nope! Making promises to other people here on dA was the reason I got into that crisis in the first place, because exactly these promises created that pressure I dislike.
...At this point, I would usually announce something I plan to do, but since I stopped promising things, there will be no announcement. Maybe one day, If I can deal better with these kind of things, there will be announcements again, but for the near future, definitiely nope.
What else? Well, I dunno. I head to bed now since I have to work again tomorrow. After that I'll be on a trip with some buddies. And when I'm finally home, who knows what will happen? Maybe I pick up a pencil and start drawing? Or maybe I'm just to tired to do anything at all? We will see.
Not a promise, but a guarantee: there WILL be art again soon!
-PX
This being said, let me get straight to the next topic on my list. I'm still trying to get over this dA crisis I just had, but there's still that odd feeling that I absolutely HAVE to create at least something to put up here on my profile, or else my existence here on dA would be invalid and unlogical. Yeah, that's basically the weird thing I was trying to tell you the last time. I'm trying not to put myself under that ridicolous pressure anymore, and since I just started working again during my semester break, It's a good opportunity to get on different thoughts. I picked up my pencil just recently, and started drawing after work, with nice music in the background, without having to worry about anything. First thing that would probably came into my mind were things like "oh gawd, is this even what my watchers want to see? I don't even know what to draw." et cetera et cetera. I stopped worrying about this. I started drawing for fun again, like it should be, since drawing has always been just a hobby of mine. I don't have clients or deadlines, so I'm starting to wonder why I always thought like this. In the end, I just ended up drawing nothing at all. I thought It would be better than drawing crap. Enough of that! In future, I don't give a damn wether my watchers like the stuff I produce or don't. Afterall, I should be watched for the art I like to create, right?
Related to this, I want to jump to my future plans. And this is funny, because I don't have any at all ... xD. Like I said, I draw whatever I want, whenever I want to, so there will be:
-NO regular based updates (means I upload stuff whenever I feel like it)
-NO art-challenges (I end up getting bored after the third drawing anyways)
-NO commissions (I tried at one point to draw stuff for other people multiple times. I failed miserably, because I made some sort of agreements which lead to pressure. If I draw something for you, it's because I wanted to do so)
And last but not least:
-NO promises! Never! At all! Nope! Making promises to other people here on dA was the reason I got into that crisis in the first place, because exactly these promises created that pressure I dislike.
...At this point, I would usually announce something I plan to do, but since I stopped promising things, there will be no announcement. Maybe one day, If I can deal better with these kind of things, there will be announcements again, but for the near future, definitiely nope.
What else? Well, I dunno. I head to bed now since I have to work again tomorrow. After that I'll be on a trip with some buddies. And when I'm finally home, who knows what will happen? Maybe I pick up a pencil and start drawing? Or maybe I'm just to tired to do anything at all? We will see.
Not a promise, but a guarantee: there WILL be art again soon!
-PX
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